“Something unappeased, unappeasable, is within me; it longeth to find expression. A craving for love is within me, which speaketh itself the language of love.” – Friedrich Nietzsche
Jesse is a sub let go by his cheating Dom, Matt, after a three year relationship. Jesse is at a loss on what to do. He’s been replaced in Matt’s life. He must find a way to get him back at any cost. He seeks out a Dom named Noah, who is known for his sadistic treatment of his subs. Jesse’s time with Noah is not for the faint of heart. It’s blatant torture and abuse, and at times, a little hard to read. Jesse wants this from Noah, craves it, needs to feel something other than his broken heart. I loved how the author put us in that room, made us feel Jesse’s desperation.
The bulk of the story is told from Jess’s POV, so at first I really didn’t like Matt. How could he leave Jesse all alone and lost? After seeing the way he took care of Jesse after a session with Noah, there was no doubt Matt still loved him. He showed such tenderness and concern for Jesse’s well being that it was hard for me to understand why he would leave him. I’m glad we got to see a bit of Matt’s perspective too, we finally know why he felt he couldn’t live up to Jesse’s expectations. Jesse sees him as more than a person, has put him on a pedestal, but he’s just a regular guy and feels as though Jesse will be better off with someone else.
Now Noah has a story to tell. We don’t get much from him in this story, but I would love to know why he needs to give out harsh punishments to subs. He seems so sad and lonely. He wants Jesse for his own, but knows it’s never going to happen. Is this why he was so hard on Jesse? I’m intrigued by the many layers this character must have.
This is a short story with some life lessons the characters learn the hard way. This isn’t a story for the person who wants sunshine and happy times. This is a story of someone in pain, who has been pushed aside and let go by the one person who is everything in his world.
This is a HEA story, despite the dark beginning. Highly recommend it!!!
Reviewed by: Lynn